Halsey revealed they “almost lost” their life as they were dealing with their lupus and rare T-cell disorder diagnoses behind closed doors.
The singer, who uses she/they pronouns, shared the information with their fans via a vulnerable Tumblr post Tuesday as they admitted they regretted returning to music after getting so much hate online.
“I am not gonna do anything that doesn’t make me happy anymore. I can’t spiritually afford it,” they noted.
“When I got sick all I could think about was getting better so I could come back and be a part of THIS again, but I don’t even know what this is anymore and I want to crawl in a hole and I regret coming back.”
Earlier in the post, Halsey, 29, said they felt their own fans are “meaner” to them “than any other people on the planet.”
“It used to be just a minority that were awful to me and now it seems like a majority have only stuck around to chime in occasionally with their opinion of how much they hate me or how awful I am,” they added.
The “Closer” hitmaker recently returned to music with the release of their singles “The End” and “Lucky,” the latter of which samples Britney Spears’ 2000 hit of the same name.
In it, they describe what they went through while managing their illnesses.
“I shaved my head four times because I wanted to / And then I did it one more time ’cause I got sick,” they recall.
“The End” also details their health struggles over the years with lyrics reading, “Every couple of years now, a doctor says I’m sick / Pulls out a brand-new bag of tricks and then they lay it on me / And at first, it was my brain, then a skeleton in pain.”
Halsey revealed in June they had been diagnosed with lupus and T-cell lymphoproliferative disorder in 2022.
At the time, they thanked their fans for their “unbelievable amount of love” and “support.” They also confirmed the diseases were “being managed or in remission.”
Before revealing exactly what they had been diagnosed with, Halsey, who is rumored to be engaged to actor Avan Jogia, said they were “lucky to be alive.”
